The love circle..

Dear diary,

It happened again, the guy shed tears in front of me, for the sake of this conversation lets call him Timmy he is convinced that he loved me....that am the only person for him....that if am not with him he is nothing.... that am his wife n he would do anything to have me...that he is ready for anything as long as he is with me. The last time something like this happened was 3 years ago with one of my best friends Martin ...i don't know if these tears come from the heart of they are just crocodile tears but what i do know is that they make me feel like i have killed a person.... they make me feel like am the worst person on earth......

he tell me has tried being with other girls to forget me... the has blocked me.....(i never even notice it ) just to make sure he forgets me...but he couldn't ... he has done everything possible just to get me out of his system but he couldn't ... but how do i say i love u to someone i don't have feelings for?? how do i say yes to being his girlfriend while my heart belong to someone else?   or how do i even promise that there is a chance for us while i know there is none??
what do i do?? what do i say?? am confused... why does it have to be dis way?? that the person u love, love someone else n those who loves u u  have no feeling for?? y does A have to love B n B love C n C love D n D love A?? why does it have to be in circles??
they say there is only one man for one woman....how do u get to know who is the right man n who is the wrong man while they don't come with labels?? 

anyway he is a good man, but not for me...i hope he find the girl who will love him back...

much love

me